Shooting stars.

Thursday, April 29, 2010 { 6:26 PM }

The warm embrace that no one knows.

Hello world.
I need to wake up.
Like seriously, wake up.
I NEED TO STUDY
and stop living in a dream.
Academically and real-lifey?
Blah.
My mum's coming home tomorrow.
Hopefully she gets me something to cheer me up.
Need some major cheering up.
I need a hug again :/

Shout out to Lorraine:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABE.
Can't believe she's 16 already.
Which reminds me, how fast time goes by.
I can't really believe I'm Sec 3, going Sec 4.
Jaysus, I'm getting old too.
Ugh.
How I wish I could stop/turn back time.
Sadly, it ain't possible.

I don't think I'll actually be able to
study at my Grandma's house.
It being so noisy with my 2 baby cousins and all.
Just when my mum gets back, I'll go into some
SERIOUS STUDYING/MUGGING.
And try to cram all the info into my already crammed brain.

Stupid Roshini, never gimme a post-it):
I'll keep chasing her for the Spongebob sticker.
Can't wait for the nail polishes to arrive.
HOPEFULLY they get to Sandra's by tomorrow.
*Fingers crossed.
I'm really pissed off at my phone.
I mean, it's sexy and stuff but LG's functions really suck shit.
Still not really on good terms with this thing called Life
but hell yeah, I'm trying.

I'm still a rockstar, I got my rock moves, and I don't need you.
So What - P!nk

[♥]

Monday, April 26, 2010 { 5:57 PM }

Bottom's got an apple innit.

Hello dears.
My stomach hurts):
Stupid gastric.
Ohmygod, it fucking hurts.
2 bottles of nail polish arriving soon(:
Hee:D
I've been so tired.

My Mum's in frikking Okinawa,
so there isn't anyone to send me to school.
And you know what, I'm fucking tired
from waking up at 5.30am in the fucking
morning to waiting for an hour before
my bus actually came.
Idiot.
I could've stayed home and slept some more.
No wonder I'm so tired.
By car, it would've taken less than 7 minutes man!
Stupid public transport!
NO WONDER NO ONE WANTS TO GO GREEN.
So inconvenient.

Bought AWESOMECUTEPRETTY stickers
from Tiong Bahru when I went to pay for my Nail polish(:
AHHH, I so can't wait. OPI FTW.
Mum's only coming back at the end of the week:/
Guess I'm just gonna have to stick this
going-to-school-myself shit.
Ugh.

Poor Roshini):
She looks damn sick lah.
My heart pain.
Gave her so many post-its.
I hope she gets wellD:
I [LESS THAN 3] her.
Get well soon, babe.

Your friends are tellin' me you gotta move on.
Second Chance - Faber Drive

[♥]

Thursday, April 22, 2010 { 8:26 PM }

It's a quarter after one, and I need you now.

Dear babes,
I'm sick.
1. Of all this bullshit.
2. With a cough, sorethroat and flu.
3. Of my life.

I honestly think I've got no life, y'know.
I mean yeah, I try desperately to fit in,
but hell, it's not working.
What's with people?
Don't they understand how I feel?
CAN'T THEY BE MORE CONSIDERATE?

Today's my mum's birthday.
Actually wanted to go cut my hair, like Janice from youtube [jayesslee]
But she didn't have the time:/
I think I really need a change of style.
Ms Tan says now's the best time,
because I can get away with whatever hairstyle I want.
TILL JC because apparently "People will judge you heavily
if you change your hairstyle."

Anyway, I think I'm pretty set on joining Crezawards.
I wonder when the auditions are.
The real night is on 16th July:O
I think I'll suffer from stage fright.
And suddenly my voice will go off-key.
Here's the song I'm singing: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DtXr0pIRSg4
I love their voices.
Still kinda mad at myself for not being able to let go.
I feel so fucking stupid sometimes.
Roshini says I have a nice voice(:
So yeah, I'm definitely joining Crezawards.
Roshitty, I♥You.

I still need a hug.
Anyone care to give me one?

I know you're leavin' in the mornin' when you wake up,
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.
The Only Exception - Paramore

[♥]

Tuesday, April 20, 2010 { 11:57 PM }

Hello.
I wrote a poem today.
It'sa rough first effort, but I think I'm getting there.

Those red lines seem so prominent,
I'm always trying to hide.
It's oblivious to the world
How I feel inside

I try to tell myself it's okay
And I almost believed that lie
But when reality pulls me back,
I feel like I want to cry

So how is it?
There's kind of a hidden meaning in it.
I'll give you a hug if you can figure out.
Though I'm in desperate need of hugs myself.
Roshini and Velvet's hearts ache for what I've done.
Y'know, I was doing my to-do list yesterday,
I drew a big red smiley, to remind myself to
"keep smiling, baby♥"

I've been so drained.
I've got no mood to do anything.
AND I can feel that I'm about to be sick soon.
My voice will be gone in no time.
Fuck, I hate sorethroats.
They last forever.
I feel like my throat has been scrubbed out with steel wool.
Grr.
Thanks Velvet, for cheering me up so much.
You kinda made me smile.
Apparently, I'm really good at hiding my feelings.
Velvet said I have a happy face, but a little sad eyes.
At least I'm getting 2 bottles of nail polish.
I guess that kinda cheers me up a little.

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again.
Tongue Tied - Faber Drive.

[♥]

Monday, April 19, 2010 { 9:20 PM }

The weight of the things, that remain unspoken.

I've decided I don't want you in my life.
If you can't stay in it and MAKE ME HAPPY,
than please, fuck off.
I've had enough of this bullshit.
I need a hug.
Desperately.
Thanks Velvet, for that boob-squashing hug today.
I really feel like I need a hug,
a really, really tight one.
And I won't let go till the other person lets go first.
Don't really feel like having any hope.
Because all that hope I have,
I KNOW IT'S ALL GONNA GET CRUSHED.

But hey, it's life.
Well, life, I have 2 words for you.
FUCK YOU.

I'm sick of this life, I just wanna scream.
Untitled - Simple Plan

[♥]

Sunday, April 18, 2010 { 11:58 AM }

It's raining today
The blinds are shut
It's always the same
I tried all the games that they played
But they made me insane

Hey.
Lately I'm finding myself being so fucking depressed.
LIFE SUCKS.
LOVE SUCKS.
Thanks Chen, for always being there for me when I fall.
Even when the person I trusted the most let me go.
You're the one who never fails to cheer me up
with your stupid messages.
Which make me smile like an idiot on crack.
I miss those days when everything would go right.
But not right now.
Everything's changed.
What's wrong with the world?
I feel like saying this to his face:
"IF YOU CAN'T CHERISH ME ENOUGH,
GET OUT OF MY LIFE."
Why? Why do they always let you down?
They stomp on your hopes.
And they throw it back in your face.
I've given up trying to be happy.
Putting up that smiley, happy mask.
But I'm still desperately trying to be happy.
Oh, screw it.
I'm pathetic. Tell me this isn't true.

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape.
Officially Missing You - Tamia

[♥]

Wednesday, April 14, 2010 { 11:26 PM }

Hello darlings.
MY EYEBALLS FEEL LIKE POPPING OUT.
And I have to push them back in.
I'm so tiredddddddd.
And we have so much homework):
I want to blow my brains out man!
AND I'M SO ADDICTED TO A SONG. 8D
Stupid Xiao Ying.
KNN the E math homework:/
I'm too tired to care.
Had wanted to get Starbucks today,
but my Mama say no):
Why're boys so confusing sometimes?
I feel like shaking them and
yelling "CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK?
I CAN'T FUCKING READ YOUR MIND."
Gawd.
I'm confused.
I'm tired.
And I've given up.
If you want me in your life, let me know.

Run, devil, devil, run.
[Run Devil Run - 소녀시대]

{♥}

Saturday, April 10, 2010 { 12:59 PM }

Hello babes, I haven't posted in forever.
I just changed the skin, nice?:D
Going to Zelda's birthday chalet later.
Haven't even got her a present:/
Dang. I miss someone.
Hey, ever felt like your happiness is just so shortlived?
It never lasts.
I think it's really true:/
That every happiness is going to be snatched away from
you sooner or later.
It never lasts, never.
That's the sucky part.
But Joey says that at least you know you've been happy.
But hey, that if you look on the bright side.
And I don't exactly feel woopy-happy-side-ishy now.
Blah.

Stab my back, it's better when I fall for you.
Stab My Back - All American Rejects.

[♥]